whatever grace

There was a time when I would envy you Give up everything so you could see the virtue Shining out of me like radiation from a dying sun But that part of me is gone, never to return Goodness only begets pain at best and chaos at worst I would rather be despicable than try to be Fucked into nothingness, respectable, erased And no one can help you now No one can break your fall Face down, no bottom in sight At least the wind in your hair Is proof that somehow, you're still alive So for seconds or decades, you move on With whatever grace you got left All the shit that you talk All your assumptions just betray Everything that you want But that you're too scared to say I get it, I used to pretend to love this world too Hidden within the glance, Within the anger that's your shield Blocking out all the vice you wish could be revealed You don't have to be afraid You only have to follow your truth (lol) But you'll never let yourself see it So no one can help you now No one can break your fall Face down, no bottom in sight At least the wind in your hair Is proof that somehow, you're still alive So for seconds or decades, you move on With whatever grace you got left Nobody owes you friendship Nobody knows you when it's cold I know, I know, I've felt it too You'd never say you're jealous But your secrets inside will leave you unknown: A fate worse than being damned. No one can help you now (No one can help you now) No one can break your fall (No one can break your fall) Face down, no bottom in sight At least the wind in your hair Is proof that somehow, you're still alive So for seconds or decades, you move on With whatever grace you got left No one can help you now or break your fall No one No one No one No one but you.