shadow zone kids

Fuck sleep Fuck every fragile home I've got dreams none of you motherfuckers know I've been fucked with one too many times Never lie down when I can fight I've held my tongue enough Never shared what's on my mind Tonight I'm leaving, all the days reaching And nobody was ever there And I am heaving, bitterness creeping Up thru my throat Why?? Motherfucker, don't try to talk back Every single time that I walked back What I thought of you just to be decent My heart withered in my hands Never thought I could fall further Wake up everything is worse Hurt, gotta feel nothing Tune out the pain and try to stay trusting Just who do you see when you look thru me? I'm a ghost in my own eyes What are you trying to find inside? The projection and the clout And all of your entitlement? I don't think that there's anything else keeping me alive The city light consumes me forever I still can't seem to say what I really mean I'm still so far away Floating just out of reach In my heart there's something holy You'll never really know me I wish I could be something I'm dreaming, I'm nothing All the world encroaching coldly All my life I've been holding This hope that's slowly crumbling Still breathing Still running Maybe it's a cop-out that I feel like a cosmic drop-out Ever since I was a kid I just wanted out This can't be right Every kind of escape only made me feel like No light ever could penetrate Dirty yellow glass I could never break Nobody can relate That bleak autumn sky The blood in my eyes Dead grass in daylight (That strange light...) Coalesced in my young mind And I don't want to wake in the grey ruins of this cage Somewhere there has to be a portal I do not belong in this place Maybe it's a memory, maybe just fiction, But all the same - I can feel it, barely contained But the city light consumes me forever I still can't seem to say what I really mean I'm still so far away Floating just out of reach In my heart there's something holy You'll never really know me I wish I could be something I'm dreaming, I'm nothing All the world encroaching coldly All my life I've been holding This hope that's slowly crumbling Still breathing Still running Oh God, what must I do? What must I do?