Unreal Tournament

Dead chemicals, not this shit again, I'm over it Lettering burnt in grey matter(ing) too much Too suddenly, everything I want you to see in me Replaced by a bad dream I'm not ready and I never was For the expectations given us The truest me believes in love But this time that's harder to trust In the moment I'm not myself at all Locked out every single time, I feel small So far but it's everything that I want So close but I cannot become it (It's not real) In the moment I'm not myself at all (Not me) Locked out every single time, I feel small (Every night it screams) So far but it's everything that I want (She's how I feel) So near but I cannot become her (She's not real) The dream of feeling alive and reckless In touch with my senses I can't get it out It's still condemned It's stuck, suspended between My heart and my mouth Who am I to say what's in my brain? Who am I today? Bend but can't break In the moment I'm not myself at all Locked out every single time, I feel small So far but it's everything that I want So close but I cannot become it (It's not real) In the moment I'm not myself at all (Not me) Locked out every single time, I feel small (Every night it screams) So far but it's everything that I want (She's how I feel) So near but I cannot become her (She's not real) In the crush of the world, I try to hold on tightly To the fragile me that I love Slowly losing my grip, I frantically try to dig Her out of the noise and the grime and mud But she's slipping every day No - Please - I need you to stay