Risk Repeater

I try to kill time, try to kill time But it's still fighting Try to stay clean, try not to think about dying Try to kill time til I get out of this place Another dead sky Wait, wait - Why is this happening to me again? I can't let it smother What I've built up over so many years I kill time til I'm someone better Killed my dreams, killed my fears Total fucking flatline Why am I here? I try to kill the time until I can take another risk To feel alive And the light has gone out again Gone out again in my head Every time I try to get attached It just doesn't last or it lasts too long And then I'm lost: Run into the night and you'll never find me Killing time until I see you again But then who are you to me? I don't even know myself And it really feels like no one ever will So hold me Try to kill time til I'm alright But I can't find what I've lost And I don't like what I see inside (Inside) No life (No life) - Remind (Remind) me why I'm here? Try to stay chill with the tunnel vision But I know it's still locked in where it shouldn't be What I need from you Feels like it would kill me if it came true I try to kill the time until I can take another risk To feel alive And the light has gone out again Gone out again in my head Every time I try to get attached It just doesn't last or it lasts too long And then I'm lost: Run into the night and you'll never find me Killing time until I see you again But then who are you to me? I don't even know myself And it really feels like no one ever will So hold me I try to kill time til I can feel anything But it's so slow I try to kill time til I can feel it again But I don't know What the fuck I'm doing here I try to kill time til I can feel anything But it's so slow I try to kill time til I can feel it again But I don't know What the fuck I'd do if any of it could come true Wait - I try to kill the time until I can take another risk To feel alive And the light has gone out again Gone out again in my head Every time I try to get attached It just doesn't last or it lasts too long And then I'm lost: Run into the night and you'll never find me Killing time until I see you again But then who are you to me? I don't even know myself And it really feels like no one ever will So hold me please The days are agony, the time crawls The feeling enters me and I fall again Too soon for this again, I'm not all here When does this stop? I need an exit