Lyrics
i'm sobbing at the open sky
my heart still lives in the dirt that won't dry
under my nails and far below, it knows me
is it always lonely when theres nothing left to hide?
can you stay alive when ur inside out?
or will u die scavenged, hollowed out?
screaming to be seen
but once it happens, is there anything left?
i'd believe that u want to crawl inside
sublimate and regress, return to light
start again deep inside my open wound
strip away the facade of what u show
no one knows you, i know i know i know
god i wish i could not relate to u
(a simple life of ignorance)
the mystery of sexiness
why is it always where the damage is?
crossed wires, misfire into swagginess
why is this magnetic?
(i don't know why i'm drawn to it)
everyone wants to be
(i want to be destroyed by it)
something so effortlessly
(i want to be controlled by it)
but no one is their true self
(images blurring up from another life)
without endlessly cultivating, rearranging their heart
never true or complete inside my heart
pieces scrape and abrade themselves apart
try to run but i cant escape the truth
misery like the sky inside a dream
i wish it was even worse, i wish it was everything
why is this what i want to be put thru?
dead neurons flashing like a lure
the warning of the phantom hurt
return to me,
you can't stay here forever
you can't stay
bro, u think u know?
ur POV swollen shut, rusted closed
holding onto the ghost of what u had control over
how long can u hide in this vision of tension
contention or silence?
fuck it, i'm hot shit
i'm sick of being passive and modest
always shy, ppl cringing at my best shot
im gonna kill the sorry bitch i was
lock eyes, make u watch
push thru like a knife in the gut
shut up
push thru like a knife in the gut
i wont give u the pleasure of it
but this one's all for u, bitch
your obsession with what ive got
back off, u cant have me
u cant have me
u cant have me