CLOUT STRIFE (grotesque version)

run away run away run away run away run away run away run away run away run away come on giving in to what has possessed me ive never been a fighter all the anger has left me im hollow, lighter than the air that catches in my chest somebody talk me down i want out i want out cocooned by the thread of the real losing sight of all the pieces that i wanted to feel failed metamorphosis still unknown still unreachable still unseen i dont want it all, i dont want the world i dont want power i guess i am a girl, but if i was miles prower i'd detransition in a heartbeat yea sick of the resonance of the parts that i couldn't reconcile it's so cringe to be stuck in my head again in my head again blocking all the shapes out blocking out the evidence of every single way out nobody can save me now sick of the resonance of the parts that i couldn't reconcile it's so cringe to be stuck in my head again in my head again blocking all the shapes out blocking out the evidence of every single way out nobody can save me now i will never see u again making plans to run away again nothing fits together in the end losing sight of traces where u went nothing fits together in the end ok since i was a kid i had a dream bigger than me drowning in the world outside of its reach oh god could it be another way out? could it be another trap door gotta paint out? purposeless, awake now thought-loop stuck in the fade-out the unknown is waiting though it's never painless, you'll make it always been about a future even when i cant see anything but the grey light of the past do it wrong, do it weird build it out of what u have the divination of the trash so sick of feeling so afraid fuck this, ill find a way through cant fake it til i break anymore snap into vigilance, allostatic crush-force so sick of feeling so afraid fuck this, ill find a way through cant fake it til i break anymore no one gets to have me run away im standing at the door of a brand new world that's just for me turn the key you coward