LOSE YOURSELF

opening my eyes for the first time in years i cannot believe all the loss all the awful grey im not here where am i? where is this? suddenly older, less alive panicking so far away barely a lifesign does anyone believe what i am waking up from? faces turn like leaves and then they're gone lose yourself and dont ever look back i won't be here everyone wants an idol get lost, i don't need you when i was stupid and young i only wanted to be cared for bare your heart to whoever will say that ur so real but i know what you really are. i thought i was growing because i stopped myself from flinching at anger so i wouldnt make it worse i cant believe i never saw it right in front of me i thought i was becoming a better person does nobody see whats happening? i cant say anything when you lashed out you killed a part of me and the sun comes up in a violent arc no matter where i go the memory of leaving the city all i want a new life receding where did all this go wrong? what the fuck lose yourself and dont ever look back i wont be here everyone wants an idol get lost, i don't need you when i was stupid and young i only wanted to be cared for bare your heart to whoever will say that you're so real but i know what you really are.