Total Paralysis at the First Notes of Immaterial Crying and Ashamed and Wishing I Could Disappear Into the Lights [JH Ligation Experiment 2]

I stand perfectly still dare not to move oh please let me become see-through crowd moving like a predator oh please god I don't need to be here Please tell me what to do I can't move I'm paralyzed I don't belong here on my own this world always so unfamiliar I don't know what I can be to finally prove that I am not afraid I just want to run away I want so bad to feel free radiant and strong to finally know myself and truly belong but I just feel so sick and scared and small I'm terrified that I'll never feel safe at all I'm paralyzed I don't belong here on my own this world always so unfamiliar I don't know what I can be to finally prove that I am not afraid I just want to run away I'm paralyzed I don't belong here on my own this world always so unfamiliar I don't know what I can be to finally prove that I am not afraid I just want to run away run away run away