Conduit - (13th Song About *****) - Anything Else. [Unfinished]

I don't know if it's worth it but I've been thinking is there a way to pretend? If only I'd been able to keep it together maybe we could start again This recursive stupid shallow pain but I'm still so afraid all those years just spent running away look, I'm fucking tired, okay? Do you remember? Do you remember that day? Do you remember? Do you remember that day? Was there a time I was free? Is this all I can be? this worthless terror in me all that's left of my identity is there something that I am that won't slip through my hands? I'm clear and fragile as glass conduit all I am I don't know if I miss you but I've been thinking what if those years made sense? I don't think it's your fault not really, well, maybe It's so hard to tell what I should resent if I could fill in all the holes would I know what is right? I wish that I could let you go I wish I didn't dream of you at night Do you remember? Do you remember that day? Do you remember? Do you remember that day? I wish that you could be a light in my life I wish that I could let you set things right Was there a time I was free? Is this all I can be? this worthless terror in me all that's left of my identity is there something that I am that won't slip through my hands? I'm clear and fragile as glass conduit all I am