GREY SKIES

don't forgive me, i promise it wasn't really me, honest i've never spoken to you possessed inexorably, empty, nauseous but it kinda feels like i'm lying through my teeth i was the weirdo but it couldn't be me calm exterior, inside pleading: "please, take me seriously" i swear it was not me and i swear it was not me but no one wants to hear that i know i wouldn't the grey sky traces spirals above the path i cut across cities a shape so meaningless, broken instinct i can see it whenever i speak grey sky traces spirals above the path i cut across cities a shape so meaningless, broken instinct i can see it whenever i speak the grey sky traces spirals above the path i cut across cities a shape so meaningless, broken instinct i can see it whenever i speak lost and tracing veins behind my eyes god, please forget me before nobody knew me and now they think they do and it keeps me up at night before nobody knew me and now they think they do and it kills me can we please start over? (no) can we just forget everything? (no) i thought i'd come so far but i am still the weird kid making everybody laugh at me stutter creep (yes) god, i wish it was different god, i wish it was different god, i wish it was different stuck in myself again stupid, stupid the grey sky traces spirals above the path i cut across cities a shape so meaningless, broken instinct i can see it whenever i speak grey sky traces spirals above the path i cut across cities a shape so meaningless, broken instinct still running still running... the grey sky traces spirals above the path i cut across cities a shape so meaningless, broken instinct i can see it behind my eyes for everything i've broken, why are you still here? why do i still want to run?