"chaos is the only way out," she said normally

after so long something finally happening to me at long last awake pulled out of my dreams your gaze is warm caution in the wind fanning embers deep all my life has been a warning now i must be free i feel it pulling at all of my thoughts again i know they notice for all of their worldliness, nobody says it nobody can understand something is breathing something is observing me i think i feel it, deeper than a memory from somewhere hidden it's telling me what i am you're so discreet so invitingly enveloping me i will never be the same you push me too deep no control holding back the crest of saturated tides still the embers in your gaze even in the flood inside i feel it pulling at all of my thoughts again i know they notice for all of their worldliness, nobody says it nobody can understand we could escape it together and run away i know you doubt it i know you cannot contain the knowing that it already has me in its hands after so long something finally happening to me after so long something finally happening to me "there there, don't cry, i'll be right here" i walk alone in this i walk alone in this "if you need me, run straight to me" i walk alone in this i walk alone in this after so long something finally happening to me we walk alone in this we walk alone in this after so long something finally happening to me we walk alone in this we walk alone in this i feel it pulling at all of my thoughts again i know they notice for all of their worldliness, nobody says it nobody can understand something is breathing something is observing me i think i feel it, deeper than a memory from somewhere hidden it's telling me what i am