Leaves

it feels like i'm falling it feels like memories, distant and sore i need things this world can't give me i've tried everything to stay (here) i feel misplaced and no one can tell me why the shadows of that world in her eyes fading this place erases what i know (of home) the veil that covers my brain makes it hard to see the damage i cause to those close to me it feels like my body hates me my thoughts are trying to kill me (i can't control this feeling) [it's just a nightmare it's just your mind, dear] but you sitting here beside me makes me feel such safety and in my dreams that place is all i need a world of warmth and peace hold me down and make me bleed it's just a nightmare it's just your mind, dear even though you don't exist i wonder how you'd feel we met when we were just children the shadows of that world in your eyes.